11136) Last night I was arguing with my boyfriend and he brought up my ED. He said, “You say you can’t change, but you can. This is just a phase.” I don’t think anything anyone has ever said to me has hurt more.

(Source: confessionsabouteds)

11165) Not eating when you’re hungry creates the illusion of being in control. But what about not being able to eat when you decide you actually want to? It’s taken me years to admit it, but I’m not in control. I never was.

(Source: confessionsabouteds)

10219) Every time someone bails on plans with me, or my boyfriend gets busy and can’t spend time with me, I get unreasonably upset and use it as an excuse to binge/restrict. It’s so childish and unfair, and I hate that I do it, but when I feel like no one cares about me, I can’t fathom why I should care about myself.

(Source: confessionsabouteds)

daphne, ondria, suvi and ola @ vera wang spring/summer 2015 backstage.

(Source: telojuropordior, via 2kgs)

10305) I just ate a complete meal. I’m about to taste it a second time. What else is new?

(Source: confessionsabouteds)

10334) I told my boyfriend I’d lost weight unintentionally. When I’m with him I eat normally and regularly. Why do I still expect him to figure out what’s going on? Obviously he can’t. But my mood swings make him want to leave me, I can feel it. I need to save my relationship, the last and only thing that keeps me going, I need to talk to him about this.

(Source: confessionsabouteds)

10188) I hate when people who KNOW I have an ED talk to me about their diet or how they haven’t eaten in this many hours or how they’ve lost so much weight. It feels invalidating, like they’re saying, “I know you have an eating disorder but it’s not significant or serious enough so it’s okay if I talk about these incredibly triggering things with you. It’s not like it’s going to push you further into a dangerous, life-threatening disease or anything. You’re fine. And fat.”

(Source: confessionsabouteds)